First, thanks for your previous compliments Angel.I came on here to start a thread on a recent experience but it vaguely relates to your comments.
I recently met a terrific guy who is deaf. He seems like a lovely man, but I cant get past the fact that he is deaf and feel like that makes me a bad person. When I dig deep and get to the bottom of it, the real problem is that I am constantly worrying about the comments that my family will make and about how embarassed I will feel in their company. How I feel about the issue isnt really a problem, its always about what other people will think. Then I feel like such a bad person so worry even more what they will think.
If I loved myself a lot more, I wouldnt care how other people felt about it and would maybe have a chance to be happy with someone who is very special. My family seem to rule my life without trying.
When you look at happy marriages (few and far between), the couples are usually happy with themselves as well as with each other. Unhappy couples often have many insecurities and dont like themselves very much. You have to love yourself before you can truly love others.
Princess Diana once said that most of the wrongs of this world are caused by lack of love. If we dont receive the love from our primary carers, we dont love ourselves and then we cant always love others. Lack of love causes hurt and anger and if not acknowledged and dealt with, it turns to bitterness and possibly violence and crime.
Sorry Angel if Ive gone off the subject a bit.
